Kat Atwell is a freelance writer, blogger & stage presence telling stories that deliver laughs, validation & community.

Mental Health | Wellness & Self Image | Experiential & Reviews

What it's like.

It's Mental Illness Awareness Week. Didja know?

I'm aware of it today. I'm totally engrossed in it, actually. Having bipolar disorder means that some days, you find yourself, without warning, floating around in a pool of self pity, completely depressed. There's no explaining where it came from, how long it's going to last, and how to get out of it.

Being depressed isn't about being sad. It's about being vacant, like a black hole. I've spent hours watching bad rom-coms while lying on the couch, wondering ... Can't even finish the sentence. Nope. I just don't care. Time is just going, and I'm letting it go.

This isn't a cry for help, and I know I'll ooze out of this mood sooner or later. Right now, I just feel really hopeless and worthless. Talking about it just seems like a waste of everyone else's time. But, it's important for others to know this kind of thing does happen, and it's life, and moods can and do change.

I could use a hug.

There’s nothing quite like forcing yourself into a corner to start you writing.

I feel like I should write something.