Kat Atwell is a freelance writer, blogger & stage presence telling stories that deliver laughs, validation & community.

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A long time ago, I fell in love with the writing of Tom Robbins. He was so irreverent and silly and wise, and had the best way of telling stories. One of the books, I can't remember which right now, talked about one of the main characters uttering the word "yum" as one of his defining characteristics. It was his affirmation and this sort of word of universal acceptance. It was only today while meditating that I found out it's actually a real mantra. What a fantastic word to hold close to your heart. More specifically, it's the mantra used to open the heart chakra.

I'm barely an amateur when it comes to knowing things of metaphysics and energy balancing and those sorts of things, but I do believe in the power of believing in oneself. And if a word, like "yum," can make a person feel more opening and willing to love and be loved? I say that's a pretty powerful statement.

Much like movies, I catch myself from time to time (like, now, for instance) wanting to go back to books that I cherished once upon a time and read them again. I want to see old movies again. Spies Like Us, The Royal Tenenbaums, Memento - poemcrazy, Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas, Where the Sidewalk Ends, The Prophet...God, we have so much creativity within ourselves, and infinite amounts of others' creativity just pulsing around us every second of every day. I was about to say it's within reach, but truly, there's no reaching necessary. It's just there.

It's one of those days where I'm feeling a little reborn, like I've opened my eyes for the first time in a long time and really looked around. It feels good, like I can conquer something and make a really positive impact somehow, in my life and potentially in the lives of others. At the same time, my body feels really heavy - not weight-wise (weight-wise?), but...I dunno. Just like I have a lot of something coarsing through me right now, making me feel a bit like I'm underwater. Normally when I feel this kind of superhuman feeling, I also feel like I could be in a Mentos commercial, lifting cars with my bare hands while winking at passersby. Not today. I feel very powerful, and very slow. It's kind of scary, in a good way, because it means I'm paying attention.

You probably ought to be a little bit scared, or excited. I am. Iyam. Iyum. Yum.


Mind. Full.