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Major Goal Accomplished.

I didn't harm anyone today physically - no adults, no children, no cats. This is a major feat, considering how little sleep I and the rest of my family got last night.

The mere idea of me ever being a stay-at-home mom is ludicrous. I made it one day at home with my severely sleep-deprived daughter and could think only of the moment when my husband would get home and I could lock myself in the bathroom upstairs and be alone for a tiny bit of time.

I miss being alone. There is something to be said about getting to do what you want when you want. And I probably lose all wife and mother points for admitting it out loud, but it's true. I miss the freedom of determining my own schedule and getting to spend a whole day by  myself "just because."

There are times I get frustrated because we have no family in town. I know lots of friends who can just drop their kid off at the grandparents' house for a weekend and get away, or have a sister or brother watch your child for an evening so you can actually go out and see a grown-up movie with your significant other, without having to fork out an additional $60 to a babysitter.

My daughter is nearly six and has never spent a night without the company of me or her dad. I can count the number of times she's actually had a babysitter on one hand. That's not normal, right? I mean, that can't be normal.

Ugh, I admit I'm frustrated because it was a long day and I wound up sucking up eight hours of PTO to watch a not-sick, just overtired little girl - one who refused to take a nap this afternoon when I was near to falling over.

Maybe I'll go for a walk by myself and get lost in an audio book for a while. It'd make more sense that if I want to be alone, I at least do something other than get older lying on the couch. And I think it's nice out; I wouldn't know, as I haven't stepped foot out of the house the entire day.

I think this is also where I go ahead and purchase Go The Fuck To Sleep and begin reading it to my daughter on a nightly basis.

Like I said, I didn't kill anyone today, so I consider this a win. Yaaaaaaaaaaaay successful parenting.

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