Kat Atwell is a freelance writer, blogger & stage presence telling stories that deliver laughs, validation & community.

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Made it!

Today was one of those days where I woke up trying to convince myself that it was going to be a good day. Helpful hint: Any day when you start with a pep talk for no particular reason, because the invisible expectation existed that something might go wrong? Yeah, strap in.

I've got to say that one of the most infuriating feelings in the world is knowing that you're being irrational and pursuing that train of thought, anyway.

However, I survived. As melodramatic as that sounds, I did. I didn't turn to medication, I didn't leave work, I didn't wind up crying. And frankly, if any of those things had happened, it would have been OK. Feeling vulnerable is totally acceptable.

My doctor tells me when I've hit my lowest moments (I'm sure I've echoed this in my journal before - a retro-echo, if you will), I'm supposed to talk to myself like I would my best friend, or my daughter.

You had a tough day. You've been sick, you didn't sleep well, and you have a lot on your plate right now. You were concerned about your daughter this morning, you were worried about a reaction to medication, and you're still anticipating news at work about a possible new position. Give yourself a break. There is no crisis around the corner, and what's most important at this moment is absolutely this moment. That's it.

And right now? Stuff is cool. I want a popsicle, but that's a problem easily solved.

Gargle.

Step in the right direction.