Kat Atwell is a freelance writer, blogger & stage presence telling stories that deliver laughs, validation & community.

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Not bored.

Today I discovered that listening to David Sedaris on audiobook leads to tremendous work efficiency. Around 2:00, having accomplished what I needed to accomplish for the day, I made a statement about being bored. Not accurate. I wanted to be somewhere else.

I'm calling myself out. I originally had written that I did not want to be at work. The reason I mention this is because I'm recognizing a pattern where more often than not, I base decisions on what I'd rather not happen. It's fear-driven decision making. Avoidant. I want to be the person who goes for it and takes risks.

Improv is a "yes and" activity. You don't explain why you can't do something. There's no time. You accept each and every word and action that comes at you onstage as a gift. Listening is a gift. All of it is positive. I've been leading a very "no because" life, and that is going to change.

Today, on a whim, I took this quiz that gave me an overview of what I'm dealing with, based on how I chose a series of colors. A few friends also took the quiz, and it wound up being eerily accurate, based on the three I did read. If you're interested, you can take the quiz here.

I just took it again. Different answers, but still resonant. I like that it lays bare what your problems appear to be, but I do not appreciate the lack of suggestions. I'm a happy ending kind of girl.

Here's what it said this time around:

Tension and stress are brought on by trying to cope with conditions which are out of her control, using up all her strength and leaving her feeling inadequate.  She wishes to escape into a more peaceful and problem-free environment, in which she will no longer have to assert herself or deal with so much pressure.

And! This:

Disappointed because her hopes have not come to pass and she fears coming up with new goals will only lead to further disappointment. These conflicting emotions lead to a feeling of anxiety and depression. she tries to escape into a peaceful and calm relationship which offers encouragement and protection from further disappointment.

Happy place.

Payback.