Kat Atwell is a freelance writer, blogger & stage presence telling stories that deliver laughs, validation & community.

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Today was exhilirating and full and made me want to do a million things at the same time. It's been hard to lock down my focus on any one particular thing. Feeling like this is empowering and has the potential to whip me into a tailspin if I'm not paying attention.

As I'm writing this, I'm also watching a documentary on Irish dancing, called Jig. It's fascinating. I've never been so fiercely disciplined about anything, really. It puzzles me, how a person can be so disciplined, or have parents so forceful, and not wind up as crushing disappointments to themselves. I realize what I'm saying is fear-driven.

Our deepest fear  that we're inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. -Marianne Williamson

Anyone who is familiar with Hyperbole and a Half felt like applauding upon seeing she had written (and what she had written about) today. I mean, it was so brilliant. She inspires me to be better. I can't say I've experienced depression of her nature before, though. I've never lost emotion entirely, but rather smothered myself under disappointment and guilt. Maybe that's a gift, I suppose. I feel everything, all the time. Times ten.

I want to be the person people look to as a risk taker and a creative, bold person. I want to see myself that way, more importantly. A friend told me to try and live my life like I'm in the middle of a neverending improv show earlier today.

Tomorrow doesn't exist yet, so I won't make any predictions about it being good or bad. I want to be purposeful, as opposed to reactive. Woo. I'm tired.

Even when you think you are, you're not.